Spring New Beginnings

All Smiles On The Outside

Spring is supposed to feel fresh and easy, but it doesn't always show up that way.

I had major struggles with an endless flare up that doesn't want to give in to all the special treatment I give it.  Come on, how many lazy days, pills, and heating pads does it really take?

On top of that, I signed up for the early launch as a challenge to myself.  I know I can always reschedule for the second launch, but apparently, I'm into the chaos of the first one.  I don't know.  Call me a little crazy.

So, I've been working slowly at getting things done.  I had a few messy moments, like the time I cut the main wire to my power system.  Oops.  Yes, I was tired.  That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

I’ve enlisted help for the things I couldn't do alone.  Sometimes I just climb on board and sit there, wondering where to start.  Sometimes it's just a place to have a shot of vodka and check in on my sanity.

Sometimes that's enough.

So, here's my spring renewal: I'm going to keep showing up.  Scared or not. I 'm going to actually learn to sail, not just motor everywhere like a nervous beginner.  I'm going to trust the wind a little more.  And myself, too.

Nothing fancy, just a promise to try.  To be a little less afraid and let spring do its work, on the river and in me.

And maybe that's the whole point.